So little yet so big!

Isn't it weird how god works in mysterious ways??? As you all know six years ago we bought our first house, your probably all wondering why the hell I am talking about that...well, isn't it weird how god works in mysterious ways... this is where it all began... 2003 Brian flipping through a house magazine one night he decides to make a few calls to mortgage companies to just see what we could get approved for, he comes across a few different companies and puts the calls in, only one person called us back, Glen (Brian was pretty excited and mentioned that there was a pulse, the realtor that was associated with this company was pretty hot! Well little did we know that the hot realtor was going to play a major role in our life years later!!! Jumping ahead 5 years... Our "hot realtor" (Chirsty Simon) ended up moving just down the road from Brian and I. We got back in contact and she and I started to play on a volleyball team together. During one of our team get togethers she mentioned that she had started adopting a little girl from Kaz. Side note As you all know Brian and I have been going through some major infertility issues, during this time we have always had the thought of adopting in the back of our heads. Although we never thought that it was going to get to that part, we thought we'd do invetro and it would work and poof, everything would be perfect and we begin our family and our lives would be perfect! Well...we all know that didn't happen! After we found out that the invetro didn't work everyone was coming to us suggesting adoption...like we didn't ever think of it! Like I said Brian and I have always thought about it but never really talked about in detail because like I said we didn't think that it would get to that. It was so hard to talk about because it was almost like an ending to the dream of having a biological child of your own. So we avoided the topic at all cost with one another. When people would ask we would people would ask us individual,y we would act like we where totally OK with it and it would seem to them like we had our stuff together although we where so far from that. We finally stared talking about with one an other and came to find out that we both where on the same page for once...we both had major hesitations with adoption, what if we couldn't bond with this child, what if later in life the resented us for it, how would we handle it when they said they hated us and wished we weren't there parents, trivial things yes, but defiantly things you think about. People who are not in our situation makes it seem so easy, that adopting in so simple and they don't think of the emotion that goes into it. Our friend Chirsty (the hot realtor) was now over seas getting to meet her child for the first time. She did an amazing job blogging her every move, and emotion be it happy or disappointed, Brain and I followed her bolg religiously. 2 months later Christy called Liz and I to see if we wanted to come over and meet her daughter Zahria, of course we where very excited to meet her, we went to her house one afternoon and she was amazing, beautiful, healthy but most of all happy. Christy and I got to talking and she mentioned that she was looking for a daycare but having a really hard time finding someone who she could trust with the most precious thing she had ever had. I had mention that I was looking in to quiting my job and staying home. We vagley talked about how great it would be if I was Z's nanny we both kind of thought the other one was joking, little did we know that this conversation would change Brian and my life forever... A few weeks later I quit my job, and I started to nanning for Zahria. The first day that I was there I was hooked...all I could think about was how silly I had been thinking that I was not going to be able to accept a child that wasn't biologically mine. I had only been with this child for a few hours and was ready to give my life for her, I was floored with amazement on how this child in just a few hours could steal my heart and make me 110% ready to adopt. It was amazing. I went home that first day and was talking up a storm about how resilient she was and how wonderful she is adapting to her new life, how Christy seems so fulfilled with life. It was so amazing how this little girl filled Christy's life with so much joy in such a short period of time, it was like they where meant for each other. You always hear how you just know when you are adopting that when you meet your child you just know she's was meant for you. I never really understood that and I don't think that until I am in that situation I will fully understand, but I seeing Christy and Z together I just know that, that statement is true. One day Brian came over after work to meet Z and she was so taken with him, she would let him hold her, she would smile and laugh at him. It was so funny. Brian came over a few times after that and the two just where smitten with easchother! (I think she has her first crush!!) A few nights later Brian and I were on our way to dinner and out of the blue he looks at me and says...I think I would be ok with adopting, Zahria is really amazing, I know that the child that we adopt (if it comes to that) would be different in so many ways but she really has opened my eyes and I really think that I would be ok now. The biggest smile emerged from his face and I couldn't help but hug and kiss the crap out of him. We have both finally gotten to that place where if indeed adoption is our way that that we would be absolutely ok with it. We have finally reached that point and we owe it all to a little angel named Zahria Alia Simon. I can't help but think where we would be if Brian didn't find that "hot" realtor! LoL Isn't it weird how god works in mysterious ways?